Thursday, 24 April 2008

I created post its...

OK so on paper it sounds really good - I am 21 and run my own business as a make-up artist, and own a home with my partner of nearly 4 years. Good right? I sound kinda successful?

Out in the real world - I am nearly 22, I am living out in a shit hole of a small town. I just quit my job and am trying to set up a company which I've already closed down once in an industry I have not worked in in nearly 2 years. I still have a decent debt on my one house that I own with my partner of 3 years who I fight with constantly (that's a healthy thing, I like the fighting).

I have my high school reunion in exactly 1 week and I'm starting to get scared. I think I've gone over the kind of school I went to once before but to recap - Private all girls school, snobs, feminists and all round spoilt petty bitches. Of course there was exceptions to that but they were few and far between and had usually gone through so much shit keeping the friends they had that they didn't want any more.

I don't know why I am going back, quite a few of my friends aren't going for the sole reason of why go visit the people that we tried so hard to escape from for 5 years. All of the people that I want to catch up with I have on Facebook and the others? Well its like when you see some thing really gross, you really really don't want to go there but some masochistic part of you wants to look.

So I'm doing the best I can, I'm putting on my armor. Hopefully there will be less that can be picked on if I wrap my self up in something I know and try to hide the little holes of failure that creep through. I started today with my nails, this weekend will be the tan, next week will be the waxes, scrubs and hair.

Wish me luck!

1 comment:

Ruthibelle said...

good luck with that!!